Finn

Mack’s phone provides the only light.

Its beam jerks across the stone walls, catches Dare’s face, then swings wide toward the stairs.

Above us, the outer cellar door rattles in its frame.

“Finn?” Calla’s voice comes through the wood, sharp with panic.

“I’m here.”

The words have barely left my mouth when a second voice whispers from the open passage behind us.

Calla’s voice.

Don’t answer her.

Every muscle in my body locks.

Mack turns toward me. Her phone light crosses my face.

“What?”

I look past Dare into the passage.

Black rock curves out of sight. Water moves somewhere below, drawing a slow breath through the stone.

Nothing stands there.

Above us, Calla strikes the door again.

“Finn.”

“I said I’m here.”

“You also said that when we were five.”

The cellar goes still.

Even the water seems to stop.

“What?”

Silence from above.

Then Calla says, “I don’t know.”

Her voice is smaller.

Dare looks at me.

I turn toward the stairs before he can ask what I heard.

The outer door has shifted less than an inch. A thin blade of gray daylight cuts across the top step and

catches dust in the air.

I climb and shove my shoulder against the wood.

It doesn’t move.

Dare joins me. Together, we push until the hinges complain, but the door strikes something on the other side.

“There’s something against it,” he says.

Mack directs her phone toward the narrow gap beneath the door.

Dare crouches.

“The edge of the landing may have shifted.”

“The landing is stone,” I say.

Calla pulls from outside. The handle strikes the wood once, twice.

“Can you open it?” she asks.

“Working on it.”

“Work faster.”

Mack finds a rusted iron tool beneath the stairs. One end is flattened into a narrow blade.

“Move.”

I take it from her and wedge it into the gap.

The metal scrapes against stone.

Behind me, the phone light shifts.

My shadow stretches across the rear wall.

It reaches past the crooked shelf and over the concealed door, elongated by the angle of Mack’s hand. My

shoulders blur against the stone. One arm is raised because I am forcing the iron bar beneath the outer door.

I lower the bar to adjust my grip.

My shadow keeps its arm raised.

For one second, I think the light has caught Dare instead.

He stands beside me with both hands braced against the door.

The shadow turns its head.

Toward me.

Its raised hand changes shape.

One finger extends against the place where its mouth should be.

Be quiet.

The phone beam moves.

The shadow snaps back into my body.

“Finn.” Mack’s voice is close. “The bar.”

I realize I have stopped pushing.

“Right.”

I drive the flat edge beneath the door and lean my weight against it. Something grinds across the landing outside.

Dare throws his shoulder into the wood.

The door opens.

Daylight floods the stairs.

Calla stands outside with both arms wrapped around herself. Rain beads in her hair. Her face has gone pale beneath her freckles.

I climb out.

Her hand catches my sleeve as if verifying that I am solid.

Mack follows. Dare remains at the bottom for one moment, looking back toward the concealed passage.

“Close it,” Calla says.

“Cal—”

“Close it.”

There is no argument in her voice.

Only fear.

Dare climbs out. Mack pulls the outer door as wide as it will go while he and I return to the cellar.

I do not look at the rear wall.

We pull the concealed wooden door shut and slide the iron bolt into place. The wet footprint remains on the fourth step until the passage disappears behind the wood.

Then Dare and I drag the crooked shelving unit across it. Its legs resist, cutting deeper tracks through the dirt.

As the opening narrows, a voice comes from behind the hidden door.

Mine.

She wasn’t supposed to remember.

I nearly release the shelf.

Dare catches the weight before it falls toward him.

“You all right?”

“Splinter.”

I look down at my hands.

There is no splinter.

The shelf settles against the wall.

Mack studies me, but I move toward the stairs before she can ask.

Outside, Calla has put several yards between herself and the cellar. She stands with one hand braced against the Carriage House wall.

Dare approaches slowly and stops before coming within reach.

“You remembered someone standing there,” he says.

Calla gives us the pieces as they return. A tall man near the rear wall. Dark hair. Water shining beneath him. A dying flashlight in my hand. Dare standing in almost exactly the same position eighteen years later.

By the time she reaches the last part, her voice has gone thin.

“There was something else,” she says.

Her gaze returns to me.

“You.”

“Yes, I was standing beside you.”

“I know. Right beside me. That’s why it was terrifying that your voice came from behind the shelf.”

Cold passes over my skin.

“What did it say?”

Her hand closes around the fabric at her waist.

“It told me to be quiet.”

The same words my shadow gave me.

No one speaks.

“Why?” Mack asks.

Calla’s face changes.

“I don’t know.”

I slide my hands into my pockets before anyone notices they are shaking.

Dare looks down at his right hand and flexes his fingers.

“When I touched the iron ring,” he says, “I knew the passage descended to the left.”

Calla’s attention sharpens.

“How?”

“I don’t know.”

“You could smell the ocean,” I say.

“I knew before we opened the door. I also knew there would be water.”

Mack studies him. “Did it feel like a memory?”

“No.”

“What did it feel like?”

Dare looks toward the cellar.

“Instinct.”

The garden door opens behind the main house.

Dad steps outside.

He takes one look at the four of us gathered beside the Carriage House and changes direction.

“What happened?”

Mack gives him the abbreviated version while he unlocks the cellar.

She leaves out nothing important, although she describes the footprint as “aggressively unexplained,” which causes him to look at her once before descending.

By the time Dad reaches the crooked shelf, he knows what Calla and I remembered, what Dare knew, and why Calla refuses to come inside again.

He examines the scrape marks in the dirt and the fitted stone surrounding the hidden door. He does not

touch anything at first.

Then his gaze settles on one of the rusted iron brackets beyond the threshold.

“Hiram,” he says.

“Who is Hiram?” Calla asks from the stairs.

Dad runs one thumb over the metal.

“Hiram Price. My great-great-granduncle.”

“What did he do?”

“Among other things, he developed an obsession with the caves beneath the property.”

“What sort of obsession?” Mack asks.

“The expensive sort.”

Dad studies the brackets. “Hiram commissioned excavations in the late eighteen-hundreds. He believed the

caves could be connected to the estate buildings and used as service passages.”

“Did he finish them?” Dare asks.

“No.”

“Why not?”

“The work became dangerous. There were collapses. Men refused to continue.”

“Because of the collapses?” Mack asks.

Dad is silent for half a beat too long.

“That was the official explanation.”

“And the unofficial one?” I ask.

His attention remains on the dark passage.

“The men claimed they heard voices inside the rock. Some reported losing time. One walked out of the

western cave three days after his family had reported him missing. He believed he had been underground for

less than an hour.”

No one moves.

“What happened to Hiram?” Calla asks.

“He became increasingly unstable. My family removed him from management of the estate. The excavations stopped, and the passages were sealed.”

“How did he die?”

Dad looks at her.

“The family record says he died in New York. I don’t know how.”

Dad descends to the wet step and crouches without touching the footprint.

For the first time, his composure slips.

He takes out his phone and photographs it.

“No one goes beyond this door.”

Calla folds her arms. “We’re twenty-three.”

“Yes.”

“That means you can’t forbid us from doing something.”

“It means I can explain why doing it would be catastrophically stupid and hope adulthood has improved your judgment.”

“It hasn’t,” Mack says.

Dad looks at her. He closes the hidden door and slides the bolt into place.

“Some of these passages flood without warning. The tides force water through chambers no longer visible from the cove. Others have been unstable for more than a century.”

“Are there maps?” Mack asks.

“Possibly.”

“In the Archives?”

“Possibly.”

Her eyes brighten.

Dad notices.

“You are not searching for them.”

“I didn’t say anything.”

“You didn’t need to.”

He and Dare return the shelf to its original position. Dad locks the outer door and puts the key into his pocket.

“I want to speak to your mother.”

“Does this mean no picnic?” Mack asks.

Calla turns toward her. “We discovered a hidden entrance to a potentially unstable tidal cave, and that’s your concern?”

“The picnic has a bonfire.”

Dad looks toward the path leading to the cove.

“You can still go. Stay on the beach and out of the caves.”

“What about the cave where we found Mom?” I ask.

“Especially that one.”

He starts toward the main house.

Inside the locked cellar, my voice whispers through the wood.

Finn.

I do not turn around.

Mom finds me in the greenhouse shortly before sunset.

I have come to collect the basket she packed for the cove. It waits on the center worktable beside two folded blankets and a canvas bag filled with supplies.

Mom stands near the western windows, clipping dead blossoms from a row of foxglove.

The glass is clear.

No writing.

No running condensation.

“You’ve packed enough food for twelve people,” I say.

“Dare is very tall.”

“That doesn't increase the number of people.”

“It increases the amount of food.”

I lift the basket.

“Mack enjoyed the tour,” Mom says.

“She laid down in the casket elevator like a corpse.”

“I heard.”

“Dad told you?”

“Your father asked whether she is always like this.”

“What did you say?”

“That we can only hope.”

Mom removes another spent flower.

I wait.

She continues working.

“You wanted to speak to me,” I say.

Mom examines the foxglove stem.

“You should tell your sister.”

I nearly knock the basket from the table.

“Tell her what?”

“Finn.”

“That isn’t an answer.”

“It is the answer mothers give when their children insult their intelligence.”

I glance toward the greenhouse door. No one is outside.

“You aren’t going to tell her, are you?”

“It isn’t my secret.”

Relief moves through me.

Mom sees it. Something in her expression softens.

“I would never do that to you.”

“I know.”

“Do you?”

“Yes.”

She sets the shears beside the pail.

“Mack cares about you.”

“Mack cares about everyone.”

“Not the way she cares about you.”

“You observed us for approximately thirty seconds.”

“I entered quietly, replaced two candles, gathered the old ones, and left. It was considerably longer than thirty seconds.”

I close my eyes.

Mom has the decency not to laugh.

“Nothing happened,” I say.

“You were asleep.”

“That was the nothing.”

“I wasn’t asking what happened.”

“It felt implied.”

“It was not.”

“Good.”

Mom carries the pail to the worktable.

“When did this begin?”

“I’m not discussing this with you.”

“You discuss your relationships with Calla.”

“Because she considers privacy a hostile act.”

Mom smiles faintly.

“She has always been afraid of being left out.”

The words quiet something in me.

Rain streaks against the glass greenhouse roof.

“It wasn’t supposed to become a secret,” I say.

“But it did.”

“We didn’t know what it was.”

“And now?”

I look at the basket.

“That remains under review.”

“Does Mack know that?”

“We have discussed it.”

“Honestly?”

“Yes.”

“Recently?”

I look at her.

Mom waits.

“This is why people don’t tell their mothers things.”

“This is why mothers become skilled at finding them out.”

I drag one hand through my hair.

“Calla will make it strange.”

“Perhaps.”

“She’ll analyze every conversation we’ve had for three years. She’ll ask when it started, why we didn’t tell her, whether everyone knew except her.”

“Did everyone know except her?”

“No.”

“Then that question will be easy.”

“She’ll feel excluded.”

“Yes.”

The immediate agreement annoys me.

“You’re supposed to tell me I’m worrying unnecessarily.”

“You aren’t.”

“Excellent.”

“But Calla’s feelings being hurt does not mean you’ve done something unforgivable.”

“We weren’t trying to hurt her.”

“I know.”

Mom sits on the edge of the worktable.

“Your father and I were friends long before we were anything else.”

“You were children.”

“For part of it.”

“You also lived in the same house.”

“Yes. It gave us abundant opportunities to find one another irritating.”

“And yet you persevered.”

“Your father was very handsome.”

“I’m leaving.”

Her fingers close around my sleeve before I can reach for the basket.

“He was also the person I trusted most.”

I look at her.

The humor has left her face.

“He knew me before either of us learned how to make ourselves impressive,” she says. “He knew when I was frightened, even when I was behaving terribly. I knew when he was sad, even when he insisted he was being practical.”

“Dad is always being practical.”

“Your father once reorganized an entire pantry because he didn’t want to discuss his feelings.”

“That sounds practical.”

“You are his son.”

I lean against the table beside her.

“Friendship can be the best foundation for love,” she says. “You already know the person beneath the performance.”

“No one said anything about love.”

“I didn’t say you were in love.”

“You heavily implied it.”

“Interesting that you heard it that way.”

I stare at her.

She smiles.

It is not triumphant. That would be easier.

It is gentle.

“I’m not asking you to decide what Mack is to you tonight,” she says. “I’m asking you not to make her feel as

though she is something you need to hide.”

“She doesn’t.”

“Good.”

“But Calla is different. Calla will notice.”

“She hasn’t yet.”

“That isn’t evidence that she won’t. It is evidence that she trusts you.”

The words settle deeper than they should.

Through the greenhouse glass, Calla stands on the terrace with Mack. They carry another blanket between them, arguing about something I cannot hear. Dare emerges behind them with a bundle of wood beneath one arm. I hope Calla tells him that we burn driftwood.

“We weren’t trying to lie to her,” I say, turning back to my mom.

“You were trying not to change something that matters to all three of you.”

I look at Mom. She understands far too much.

“Secrets change things anyway,” she says. “Usually without your permission.”

Outside, Calla throws her end of the blanket at Mack.

Mack catches it and laughs.

Calla says something to Dare, and he drops the fire wood.

I turn away from the window.

“What did Dad tell you about the cellar?”

Mom’s hands go still.

“Enough.”

“Did you know about Hiram’s passage?”

“I knew the family stories.”

“Voices in the rock? Men losing time?”

Her gaze moves toward the western glass.

For one moment, she appears to be listening.

“Mom.”

She looks at me. “What?”

“You went somewhere.”

“I was thinking.”

“Have you ever been inside the caves beneath the Carriage House?”

“No.”

The answer comes too quickly.

“Have you seen the hidden door before?”

“No.”

Mom turns the pruning shears so their blades catch the light. Then she stands and lifts the canvas bag.

“You should go. It’ll be dark before you reach the beach.”

“You’re changing the subject.”

“Yes.”

“At least you admit it.”

She hands me the bag.

“Stay out of the caves.”

“You sound like Dad.”

“I occasionally do. It has been a long marriage.”

At the greenhouse door, she says my name.

I turn.

“Tell Calla soon.”

“How soon?”

“Before she finds out herself.”

“And how would that happen?”

Mom glances toward the chapel.

Heat moves up my neck.

“The pews cannot be good for your back,” she says.

Then she picks up her shears and returns to the foxglove.

I leave before she can injure me further.

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The moon is rising as we reach the cove.

Mom has packed cold roasted chicken, bread, cheese, apples, two kinds of cake, and enough other food to support a small coastal settlement.

Dare carries the basket. I take the canvas bag. Calla and Mack carry the blankets between them, arguing about whether Mack is helping.

“I am helping,” Mack says.

“It’s two blankets. I could carry them easier alone.”

“You don’t need to carry them alone. I’m here.”

Calla sighs and trips on a rock.

Mack grabs her elbow.

“And now I’ve saved your life.”

Calla sighs again.

The stone fire ring is tucked above the tide line.

Calla drops her end of the blankets and begins sorting through the driftwood we gathered—dry splinters and brittle twigs for kindling, then the pale branches that have been baking above the high-water mark.

Mack contributes a branch dark enough to drip.

Calla throws it back toward the beach.

Dare places the basket safely beyond the reach of the tide.

“Would either of you be offended if I prevented us from freezing?”

“Deeply,” Mack says.

“Proceed,” Calla tells him.

He crouches beside the ring and rearranges the driftwood Calla has already chosen, leaving space beneath the larger pieces for air. She watches him make two small adjustments.

“I had it,” she says.

“I know.”

The fire catches on the first attempt.

Mack watches the flames climb through the salt-bleached wood.

“I dislike him.”

“Naturally,” I say. “Competence is threatening.”

We spread the blankets above the line of wet sand.

The ocean is dark beyond the cove. Clouds move east over the water, revealing strips of deepening blue and, eventually, the first few stars. Firelight catches in Calla’s hair when she kneels beside the basket. Dare watches her until she looks up.

Then he becomes interested in bread.

Subtle.

Mack drops beside me and steals the apple from my hand.

“That was mine.”

“Your family has provided eleven others.”

“That one had potential.”

She bites into it.

“It has fulfilled it.”

Calla looks between us.

For one terrible second, I think Mom has overestimated our remaining time.

Then Calla reaches for the cake.

“Did Dad seem scared to you?” she asks.

The question takes the humor out of the fire.

Dare breaks a piece of bread in half. “Yes.”

“Dad doesn’t scare easily,” Calla says.

“He does,” I tell her. “He simply regards displaying it as inefficient.”

She draws her knees toward her chest.

“Do you remember anything else?”

The voice behind the shelf returns with perfect clarity.

She wasn’t supposed to remember.

My shadow lifting one finger to its mouth.

“No,” I say.

Calla studies me across the flames.

“Nothing?”

“Nothing more than you do.”

The lie enters the space between us and stays there.

Mack’s shoulder rests lightly against mine.

Mom’s voice returns instead.

It is evidence that she trusts you.

I look at Calla.

Tell her.

Not about the shadow. Not about the voices. Begin with the truth that belongs to me.

Mack’s hand lies palm-down on the blanket between us. I could cover it with mine. I could say her name and let the rest follow.

The ocean strikes the rocks beyond the cove.

“You promised.”

Mack’s voice is beside my ear.

I turn.

She is still leaning against me, but her attention is on Dare. He is telling Calla something about the stars

visible between the clouds.

Mack’s mouth has not moved. She didn’t speak.

“What?” she asks now, her brow furrowed. “You’re staring at me.”

“I was considering whether you intend to return my apple.”

She takes another bite.

“I do not.”

Calla stands and retrieves her camera from the top of the blanket.

“All of you together,” she says.

“Why?” I ask.

“Because Mack came all this way, Dare may eventually remember he has somewhere better to be, and you’ve spent the entire day looking like someone is following you.”

Mack rises and pulls me with her.

Dare stands on Calla’s other side while she sets the timer. Then she runs across the sand and wedges herself between him and Mack.

The camera flashes.

For a fraction of a second, four shadows leap across the pale sand behind us.

Then mine turns toward the water.

I have not moved.

Calla checks the photograph.

“Did it come out?” Mack asks.

“Yep.”

I do not ask to see it.

We stay until the fire burns low.

I never tell her.

The house is quiet when I open the journal.

Black leather. My initials stamped in gold.

FPP.

Mack gave it to me for Christmas almost three years ago. The first page contains her inscription. The second contains three resolutions I abandoned before the end of January.

Everything after that is blank.

I sit at my desk and turn to the first empty page.

For several minutes, I hold the pen without writing.

This is not a journal.

Journals require introspection, and I remain morally opposed to that.

This is a record.

Records are evidence.

Evidence can be examined.

I write the date at the top of the page.

Then I begin.

The following events may be connected.

1. Seattle. A voice on the sidewalk said, Save me.